I'm spending most of my time on online games which some find strange. I just can't so no on these games. It has become a habit ofmine eversince the birth of Counter Strike and Ragnarok. Hehe.

Just this recently I received a threat from someone and I laughed at first thinking it was a joke or something. But everything ceased to be funny when this person tried to punch right on my face. I'm really thankful for my quick reflex and my face wasn't damage. I don't feel anything. Iono why.

I'm really happy for everything that is going on in my life right now. I really like meeting people who are a few years my senior. They teach me a thing or two in life. I just hope my dad will support me on this. I'm not asking him to do anything. Shutting his mouth will be just fine.

Something to do this summer. Fight!!

Last night was one of the hardest nights in my whole lifetime. I was really tired then since my family and I went swimming at a condo at Xavier St. and I wasn't in the mood to do anything but sleep. I was surprised to find my sister at the sala frustrated and all. And yes, I've guessed it right, it was one of those family issues AGAIN! I immediately talked to my dad to talk to Aika since we can't afford to have another trouble in the family. I was all good till he told me about what's going on. I nearly cried in the middle of that conversation and was constantly excusing myself to go to the bathroom to get a hold of myself. Dang them animals. Grabee... Our youngest spent the night at the Catolos house and she slept beside me. Wala lang. I can feel her pain when she hugged me that night. I was trying hard to be strong enough not to give in. I was successful in that!=) F* all his ** *. My family doesn't deserve any of these. After that, I made a commitment not to go to parties, bars and the like until everything's cleared up/ I just have this urge to protect them,y'know. Iono why. I just wanna be there for them for once. Another life's lesson? STOP CARING and SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!

I have to accomplish a lot next week. I feel more powerful than ever now. I have a meeting at Blueridge with a highly-respected person. I don't know what to wear and how to talk to him. RARRR! I'm totally freaking out. Hehe. Anyway, there's always a first in everything. I'm done reading People Skills. I'm thinking of downloading more e-books that may help me become a better public speaker.. Hahaha! I'm not yet done with the calling cards though. So much to do, so little time. Haha.

My brother is becoming responsible nowadays. Maybe its because of the support he's getting from his girlfriend. I like July for him. She's very sweet and thoughtful. I texted her the other day to surprise my brother and she really came!!! Great gal. Haha.

Hay.. Can't wait to watch the Wushu Nationals. Chelsea Bernasconi is definitely going to win.

Also, I can't wait to go to Boracay with my brother. I don't like Boracay though. But I'm sure to have a blast with my brother.. Yeessss. Feel-good-family-moment? Ewwww. HahHAHA

We have a band practice today at 8am. Since I'm the oldest in the band, I have to stand-up as "ate" to everyone. I had to print out the lyrics of the songs for the vox, wake up Dom, fetch Miko at Netra, and practice some of the bass parts of at least 5 songs. Hay, I feel good though. I really hate it when I have nothing to do.=) I hope we'll be able to perform well next week. Wish us luck!=)

I was happily sound asleep this afternoon when my younger sister woke me up. She was pushing my back while catching her breath and saying,”Che, andiyan si Ate &%#@&* #!” I immediately knew this was impossible to occur and just went back to sleep. She woke me up again and asked me, “Hindi mo ba lalabasin?” I was too lazy to get out of bed then so I just asked her what made her think that this person was out there. She then told me that there is a Toyota car waiting outside the house. I just smiled at her and told her that I was certain it wasn’t her. Thank God she took my word and left me alone.=) After having dinner I called her and had a brief discussion about the songs I asked her to download before merienda and to ask her something about her suitors. The conversation was cut short when my younger brother interrupted us and asked if the person was the person Mai thought it was. I told him that it wasn’t. I felt the anticipation of my brother and my sister in meeting this person again. I couldn’t blame them though. The person was extra nice to them. They were actually spoiled by this person whom is hard for me to keep up. Hehe. An awkward silence filled the room and I just had to tell them the obvious. It wasn’t that hard really since they are both mature enough to take on the truth. I just felt guilty that they had to be affected with the situation. I was sensitive enough to break it off gently. I told them that the person will not pass by anymore. Maybe just to pick up some of her stuff but she won’t be spending time at that house like before. Another awkward silence filled the room and my younger brother asked jokingly, “Bakit mo na naman inaway? Batiin mo na!” I laughed for awhile and immediately changed the topic. They won’t understand and I don’t have to tell them the real reason either. At least they remember the person in a good way.=)

My family at the moment is hounded with so many issues. My mom called up a family meeting. We were excited for we thought that the Bolinao was purchased already. But we were all disappointed when my mom told a story about our father that we already knew. So as she was narrating the story my dad’s cousin told her, we were pretending that we heard it for the first time. I was just surprised when my little sister cried at one point. Shortly, my mom cried, too. I don’t really give a f*ck on lying to people. I have actually mastered the art of lying. I just don’t feel good on this one. Not to my mom and definitely not this way. I just don’t want to care. Iwas-iwas muna.

Iono. For everything that happened today, I learned something. I can’t risk another one of those drama-awkward-moments with my brother and sister. I don’t think I’ll let anyone hang out in our house anymore. Ayoko na ng ganun. Ang corny. Hehe. Better safe than sorry.=)

Haha. Just when you thought life is unfair, you meet someone who is exactly like you. At first, I really hated this person's guts and I was really vocal about it to other people. Everything changed as we were stuck in a room and all thanks to Aya for a night of discomfort. Kidding. I really should thank her for that. Nakahanap nga ako ng katapat ko. Haha! The first few minutes were awkward and the silence is unbearable. We were compelled to talk and we were surprised to find out that we had a lot in common. Like faamily set-up and views on relationships, etc.

We made a pact to support each other from now on. And we started calling each other "Subs." Haha. Talk. It can relieve so much stress. Listen. It can do so much.

Funny how I get into trouble without even lifting a finger. It's not that I wasn't attracted to her significant other, but I'd like to believe I wasn't doing anything wrong. I won't try to steal a person away from somebody. NEVER! Jesus. Everything was done innocently. We were just hanging-out. Everything just felt different. But I do know my limits. And I got off with the idea how cheap people can get. I guess, it was the thrill of not being able to say/do everything and having limitations that got me interested. Heheh. But who cares. It's their problem. I'm just staying away from those two weirdos.Anyway, I had my taste of fun already. Haha

I was able to get in touch with a person I knew ages ago. I'm not even exaggerating. The last time I was able to talk to this person was 6 years ago? I'm not even sure. It's funny how this person described me. It just doesn't feel like I'm any of those anymore. I ceased to be spontaneous, daring, fearless, etc. I really appreciate how much she remembered how I used to be. It made me remember how fun my life was back then. I was happy.=) It was a good life.

I'm thinking of ways to prank my brother. I just couldn't come up with some good stuff. Heheh.

I was really bothered after talking to my "phone pal" this morning. I actually hate her for making me confused for a while. Anyway, I'm now straight with this one:I DON'T BELIEVE IN RELATIONSHIPS. Relationships are for wussies.=) HEhe. I'm 21 years old. I want to have fun.=)

Peace: Something I've been working on for months now. I had to stop blogging in my multiply account for the reason that people can get quite annoying sometimes. It's much better here, being unknown and all, I can just be myself.

It's like I'm in a masquerade play everyday. I wake up, put on that i'm-okay-mask and start fooling everybody on what's really going on with me. One reason is that I don't want to become a burden to other people and I just want to deal with it alone. I just snap sometimes and this night is one of those nights. I feel like I don't have anybody to talk about my thoughts. I find it hard to find someone that can actually understand my way of thinking. Iono.

I decided to sacrifice myself for my family. I want to be the one to step-up. I want to make a difference.. It won't take me long to do so.

I was able to spend some time with my friends this week. Although I wasn't really happy about this. I like being with them and all but I really just wanna be alone right now. And I just hate being forced to meet them. Iono.

There are no stars in the sky right now.. Hmmmmm.. What a gloomy night.. Goodnight, blogosphere.

I'm bored to death. It's been more than a week since we last had our regular classes. This state got me financially-crippled and stagnant..... In the contrary, I had a blast if we start talking about my social life... I spent my whole week playing billiards and practicing for our gig.. I've been excessively hardworking for the band: talking to people here and there, trying to be at several places at the same time.. I'm more than what I thought I could be and I should reward myself for that.=)

For the past few days, I haven't had a serious, heart-warming conversation with anyone. I guess, the main reason for that is I've been busy with stuff, which is definitely inexcusable.. I just find it hard to talk, nowadays. Nobody seems to get what I'm into or what I'm feeling. Everybody became like everyone.. Haha..

I'm more passionate in playing the guitar right now than anything in my life. Music just moves me, comforts me. And to just blurt that one out to someone not coming from the similar ground as I am is social suicide. Hah! Iono.

It's weird, though, when a person starts telling you how great you are because you can do certain stuff. Little do they know, it's nothing, really. Playing the guitar?? Soccer?? Badminton?? They all are just skills. The only difference is I choose to concentrate on these because it strikes my heart's interest.

HAyyyy.. People.. Anyway, I started doing a composition and I'm halfway done. I started placing a good, clean riff for the Calypso. It's funny whenever I recall my friend's reaction to the lyrics of a song I made and photos i took. "Manyak? Ang manyak!" I was shocked.. I always thought she was smart. But then I realized, she's one of the dumb-smart people I know. Argg. She failed to see the depth of the picture/song.. It was art. A kamasutra-ish kind of art. Still, it was art.

I guess, people just don't get the point. They don't get it. They just can't see that like photographs, the song captures one moment in a person's life. Only in much more detailed form.. Again, we're just people..